ibelievemyself...

2010-12-19T17:28:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I last updated my blog!! Guess that November was extremely busy for me and the most stressful month ever! With the extra 8-9 hrs confinement on a weekend and guard duty on Deepavali, it just summarise how sucky my month was.. Though it was my birthday month, but I don't even wish to remember anything from my 21st birthday.. sad but truee.. But now that we are in the middle on December, so far December has been pretty much awesome for me! so pleaseeee, stay that way! Been bbooking out on Friday for the past 3 weeks.. So much differences from the suckiest month of November!!

3 more weeks and we'll be throughhhh, wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
It will be a bitter-sweet ending.....

2010-10-29T12:41:00.002+08:00

Yay! October is coming to an end, one of the most tiring month, as predicted! For the past 3 weeks, it has really been tiring and draining.. Booking out on saturday and booking back in on sunday and finally this week, we booked out on friday!that's not the worst, training ends at 8-9 plus and when there is no training in the night, there are always lecture or it's allocated to pack and get ready for field camp! With field camp ending, done washing an packing up! phewww, a sign of relief!not that my following days will be easy but at least, field camp is over and done with! Actually, I feel that time flew by esp. for the 3 weeks because we were all kept busy doing stuff!
well well, wish me luck for the next 2 months! haha!

Till next time!

2010-09-26T14:48:00.002+08:00

Time flies, It has been a month in tekong and in army! anyway I know I did say to update it every weekend when I booked out but for the past few book outs, I spent going out and hanging out with many people! Wellwell, Life in there is so far quite alright though I'm expecting tougher times to come in the next few weeks and when training is in full force, maybe it won't be alright anymore! HAHA! but staying as positive as I can! Looking at the few obese company passing out real soon and they spent the last few weeks relaxing! October and November wont be easy but anyway and anyhow, I'll survive through it!!

Till next time...

2010-08-25T01:48:00.002+08:00

Wellwell, it's 25th August today and tomorrow, I'll be on my way to tekong serving the nation.. It marks the end of my 6+ months holiday and I'm starting to feel what army guys are all feeling right now.. Alright, but I should not complain because I really enjoyed this period and the trips & everything that I did for the past 6+ months..

I just want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart who made an effort in going out with me for dinner, lunch or just a gathering.. Thank you esp. to almost everyone who has been telling me to msg about my well-being in tekong or call them whenever I need.. and to those who called or msg me though they cannot meet me, thank you! Really appreciate everything single thing and I feel blessed, truly blessed!! It made me realised that there are so many people who are there for me even though at times, I think I neglected them in the past.. but dun worry, I will do just fine in there though I dun know how it is like but if so many people can survive.. I don't think I will be an exception!!

Will try my best to update my blog on every book-out! till next time...

2010-08-19T01:36:00.003+08:00

I don't really care how people look at me or maybe just the three idiots.. I won't act like as if I'm happy when you people spoiled my day..
I felt like a complete fool, seriously..
Thanks anyway.. fucking idiots..

anyway so it's down to one more week before I enter tekong! The anxiety and wait is kinda killing me quite abit but at least, I have sth else! haha..

I appreciate that soso many people are meeting me before my enlistment but it's not like as if we are not gonna meet up during my BMT or two years.. because I still want to keep in contact with everyone during this period though I don't have the luxury of so much time but yea.. I will want to meet you people during my BMT and 2 years esp. when during my BMT period is at the end of the year when so many events and meet-ups will always take place! alright, one more week before the next chapter of my life will unfold!

2010-08-12T00:12:00.003+08:00

I am offically left with exactly two more weeks before going into tekong!!

Been doing almost everything what I wanted during this holidays! esp. eating alotalot! something which I will need to control and will miss during the 19 weeks BMT in tekong!! and it is kind of amazing that I don't mind travelling to the west to go kbox, mahjong or just a simple meal!!

Anyways, I'm being very positive about this national service.. After all, it's not by choice that we all must serve the nation.. It's like the way we brought up in Singapore, that going primary, secondary and tertiary school is a must-do-thing.. Though, the two years wont be easy but everyone will go through it eventually!! I just hope that I meet good people/friends inside because they are the only thing that can make ur live easier in army.. Don't really think that any vocation is easy unless I will down-pes which I guess its impossible!

I'm really really happy with it but there is still this phobia in me that I know won't go away and I guess, that phobia, will do me good!! because I dun want to end up like how I ended up.. But whatever it is, I just think that whatever that has been done, still doing and will be doing are all worth it and I wont regret.. Not regretting, will be the most important.. So whatever that happens next, I will just accept it as it was once that awesome and I'm satisfied..

At times, greed gets the better of human being and they always expect more after something has been achieved and this cycle will continue on and on.. but sometimes, being satisfied with what you have is another kind of pleasure.. It's not that we are easily to satisfied or we have lower expectation than others.. It is because we know how to treasure and be contented with what we have..

2010-08-07T00:20:00.003+08:00

HELLO! I'M BACK!!

Decided to start blogging again since I am kinda free now! and most importantly, this is one of the very few avenue that people can keep up/know/be updated with my life once army starts!! wellwell, my 6-7 months of break is gonna end soon but so far it has been a really awesome one!!

More recently, since world cup begin, been so busy with working for Sgpools till end of july though the last two weeks were really slacked for me.. Really love my job alot and the pay was also good!! Actually, it made me realise that I like a customer-oriented job! haha..

yeap, and so, I've left with three more weeks before it's time to serve the nation! hahaha! Till next time....

2010-06-24T00:01:00.002+08:00

Though I have been saying that the situation is under control but I know it is not under control now.
Though I know that it won't go out of control but it doesn't feel good when I am not in control of it.

Anyway! I'm enlisted on 26 August!! and for some reasons, I am feeling happy!!
HAHA, IT'S CRAZY, I KNOW!

2010-06-04T17:13:00.001+08:00

Had the intention to blog today but laziness got the better of me..

So I shall leave you with this,

I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.

Nelson Mandela

2010-04-28T04:20:00.005+08:00

I spent this night or rather morning thinking about this chance that has been given to me.. Maybe a very lucky chance that I would never imagine that I could have at this point in time.. That's being a sales agent & having a mentor, Jasmine who is the team leader of a company which is a rare chance for many.. and I have only learnt that when people started to tell me that it is my honour to be under her and she telling me that she wants to groom me to be as successful as her..

Through out my training, she really shower care & concern to me like msg-ing me if I had an umbrella because it's raining heavily and also giving me a lift in her car when possible.. The twist is this, I know what I want to do in my future after Uni and whatever job that I am having now will only be for short term but this is not what Jasmine wants me to be.. It is quite clear that she wants me to be successful in this company whether I am in the army or not.. and this seriously stress me alot during training, people telling me that it is an honour, people saying "you are under Ms Jasmine right?"!!!

Maybe I just dun know how lucky I am but I have decided to turn this down before I get myself committed to working with her because I know I will disappoint her more if I officially start working for her.. Well, I dun really know how to tell her this but I will find a way within two days.. but having said that, I really learn alot alot from them and network marketing which many people think it's a scam without really knowing what that really means..

2010-04-22T01:33:00.001+08:00

HELLO!!! I'm back to blogging!! It feels like a long time since I last blogged, maybe because of everything that have happened!!

Everything that happened last week was just awesome with St. Patrick's concert @ Esplande and also the bali trip which is awesome to the max!! but no pictures for now cos it havent been uploaded!! *hinting to the person* HAHA!!

Let just start with our four days bali trip, which I called it awesome-ly sinful.. It was planned only two weeks before hand thus, the daily updates of the flights, accomodation, applying for leave or M.C & also all the other arrangement!! It's awesome-ly sinful cos of everything, we stayed in a villa with a private pool, it was on a hill top over-looking some parts of bali, have two HUGE toilets which are bigger than my bedroom, always having someone to drive the four of us around and to prepare for us breakfast!!

Well, the shopping there is quite limited and the price is not very cheap but the DVDs are god-damn cheap for such good quality man! really worth the buys.. so we went there, with the mindset of relaxing and just relaxing and we had all the time in the world!! Went to visit the 2002 bali-bomb site memorial, massage, shopping, dinner by the beach and most fun-of-all was river rafting!! We all really love it but it was also the most tiring activity! The air-boat we were on just bang into practically all the big rocks and stones in the river!! There were also times that I almost fell into the river!!

We spent almost half the time in the villa, enjoying the pool and sun-tanning!! In the night, we sat down by the pool to talk anything under the moon.. During one of the morning, we started throwing each other in the pool and pushing.. All in all, everything was awesome but come back, pocket hole got bigger! haha..

As for St. Patrick's School & Alumni concert was also heartwarming to see familiar faces and listening to the band.. Went for supper and then chilling out at Siglap!! And as much as everyone from my batch is looking forward to May 22's gathering, we-all-know-why la!!

Oh yea, for FOC 2010, camp fusion, I guess all went well and it pretty reminded me of Camp PIAK 2 somehow, somewhat and I enjoyed campfire to the max!!

And I enjoyed meeting friends whom I havent for few months, let it continue!! haha

2010-04-07T04:54:00.005+08:00

I can't, I can't wait for this week to fly by so that next week will come faster!!
Waiting with so much anticipation for the St. Patrick's Alumni Band concert, hearing that familiar band sound and see-ing the familiar faces once again re-unite for this concert.. After which will be my bali trip, when and where we will live like kingssss.. haha..

Reality check: Today is Wednesday, I still have FOC for the weekends!!

But again, I really can't for the esplanade alumni concert on Monday, where I also performed twice in the concert hall, went for two competitions where victory never tasted that sweet, being ranked as the top few bands, went for two overseas trip namely Hawaii and Brisbane/Goldcoast being a member of St. Patrick's band.. It was also a time that we knew, we flew Singapore's flag and St. Patrick's school flag the highest to claim top two spots in Hawaii's competition..

Reality Check again: Those were all memories that will always be with me. Time now: 5:04 am, time to sleep.. Nites all!!

2010-04-07T04:42:00.003+08:00

I feel that I have let you down, I didn't trust you.. I'm sorry..

2010-04-06T03:54:00.002+08:00

At times, people are kind enough to forgive you after what hurtful words you have said, never try it again, for you will never know what's to happen next..

2010-04-04T02:14:00.003+08:00

I really hope that the Bali trip is onzzzzzz!!

Does bringing someone down, makes you feel better ??

ok, as much as I hate to admit this, I'm emotionally unstable.. There is too much happenings that is happening right now but I will stay positive!!

2010-04-02T21:59:00.001+08:00

Just wanna share this saying which I really like and found out a couple of years ago

What is your deepest fear?

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you.We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; its in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsiously give other people to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

2010-03-30T03:15:00.002+08:00

Glad that everything is over already because it was all-so-wrong to begin with.. Not exactly if there is a right or wrong to even start, but everything got sorted out.. And I know what I should be feeling, I'm extremely happy though, it's like something off my shoulder.. It's good to clarify things because no one gets the wrong idea and then no one will blame each other for what had or has happened.. I'm taking it in my stride because I do not let this kind of thing affect the way I live my life(Sounds serious huh)Because to me, as long as I'm happy having all the freedom I have in my world then the rest, I dun really care about the consequences!! haha!! So, Just forget that this whole thing happened ok cos it's over!! haha!!

Actually, a part of me can't wait to enter army cos to get it over & done with and to let ppl see how slim I will be!!!(FYI, I was underweight till 10 years old when I became overweight) hahaha.. and you know to see my band batch mates all in army and getting out of it to go Uni is also another motivation to get out of it fast fast!! haha..

2010-03-25T06:07:00.004+08:00

Time check: It's 6:07am at the bottom right of my laptop's screen, and if you are wondering why the hell I am even here.. cos I'm going for breakfast very soon and am here to kill time!!

As usual for me, holidays = body clock change, I sleep in the morning and awake in the night.. and now, If you are wondering what can I do in the night, it's hell lot for me currently.. haha!! It includes going to J.B to have supper and for my friend to pump petrol, prawning, K-box, supper-ing of cos, watching dramas & movie..

There are a couple more things that I have accomplished during this holidays like being a facilitator for bonding camp a.k.a leadership camp, mahjong-ing x2192182912, hanging out with all my old friends.. haha, ok, thats all my mind can think now actually..

I'm very sure that, give me a few more weeks like that and I will start complaining.. haha.. So I am gonna start looking for a job and hopefully get it.. Of cos, there are still things for me to look forward like taiwan trip! haha..
If anyone of you got any job lobang, PLS tell me!!!!! hahaha, but I do not want office hours job!! part-time will do and the pay must be reasonable most importantly!! hahaha..

-unexpected-

2010-03-15T02:05:00.003+08:00

Going for mass today was one of those that is especially really nice to go because the visiting priest really had a very good sense of humour that we laughed half the time during his homily(Preaching, so to call).. Very good week and very good day!!

2010-03-11T02:17:00.002+08:00

I have realised that...........

My tolerance level is getting lower as compared to before,
I'm no longer as patient as I was,
I'm being very attitude to people..

SHIT! This cannot go on!!!!!!! hahaha!!

Anyway enjoyed myself very much on Monday and Tuesday,
Monday was out with 3Js, went for jap buffet lunch, karaoke and then dinner around paradiz street that side!! It was damn enjoyable esp. the karaoke, apart from the usual scoldings which I got from them which I'm already used to.. haha! Like damn ke lian ar!!

Then on Tuesday, met up with DQ,SS,VV for mahjong session and abit of texas poker.. Our aim was to determine the person who treat/ pay most for dinner!! haha.. Quite fun though but we are like killing each other in a way!! haha!! and now the two girls are somewhat addicted to Mahjong! haha.. ok, Just end with a pic which I think is damn nice!! hahaha

2010-03-07T22:35:00.003+08:00

So much have happened since the last time I blogged, Graduation night is over and I spent the whole night laughing non-stop and the food was better than I have expected haha!! and so, this means I'm gonna continue bumming and slacking during this holiday till I get myself work or something meaningful to do! haha..

Actually I have so much to type in this space, so much anger to vent here.. But I guess I will vent out part of it here......

I treated you as if you didn't exist, look at the way you talk and your actions..
You really think you deserve respect when you dun even respect ppl, I was really shock when those came out from your mouth.. You will be the last person that I expect ppl to respect you..
Now I really get it, why people are acting the way they were or are..
Now I know why all these are happening to you..
And I'm so glad that you are not inside, because you will be adding to the cui situation which we are all seeing now..
Take a look at your pathetic state now, you deserve this very well..
Yet, you do not see how people are reacting to you..
Pls wise up and mature.. This world does not owe you a living nor anyone else does..
The only thing that I see in your face is a confused and all you do is to try to attract attention, Try harder then maybe someday you will succeed..
As for now, enjoy leading your screw up life.. Congrats!

2010-02-23T02:09:00.002+08:00

Post-Internship Days!! have all been awesome making every minute counts apart from my longer hours of sleep!! haha.. Been busy with Chinese New Year, Presentation & report and most importantly enjoying & going out with friends!!

Happy Lunar New Year everyone!!!!!!

Prior to CNY, I was helping my mum to spring clean the house, bought everything that she asked me to.. and seriously I cleaned majority part of the house but of cos together with my mum and abit of my aunt's hse next door!! haha, From toilets, all the windows, cooking stove, sweep & clean the floor and wiping almost everything!! and when my mum told my dad and bro about my hardworking-ness, their reply was "he has no work, he should be the one doing it" HAHA but regardless of it, I still feel happy!!

As for my presentation, I start two days before my presentation day and I guess it went pretty well.. and I just remember how I used to present in class, Knowing nothing much but acting like as if you know everything with confidence in me!!

haha, anyway that officially marks the end of my Polytechic life and it's been three years.. Three years that maybe I will never be able to forget these wonderful times spent in school that travelling from east to west didn't matter at all.. Of course, there are times you feel like not going to school and just staying at home but when knowing that school is and will always be full of laughters.. Suddenly, the lazy thought vanish into thin air.. Probably, in the last year for me, things started to change like skipping so many lessons and almost getting into "trouble"! haha but everything seems to be good now and I feel good.. Anyway there's still grad night this Saturday!!

I guess I have a decision to make soon, I have every intention to help but if history is gonna repeat itself and making me feel worst then no thanks.. will leave you with this....................

"Sense of satisfaction comes when you know you have inspired the people around you by your small little actions and impacting them in ways that you have live your life"-NTWJ! haha

2010-02-06T04:14:00.008+08:00

The day that we have all been waiting for since 14th September has finally arrived!!!

These are the people who really really made my internship good,
who made me laugh the hardest even on the most stressful day,
who can complain to each other like nobody's business,
most importantly, made my internship a memorable one!!

On Thursday, just a day before internship ends, was the most awesome day.. It totally felt like an adventure.. From going to Expo to shop, buying BK and choing-ing our lunch and going back from all different entry of the building just to make sure that no one see us going back late together.. and after work, straight to prawning with everyone so excited in the car and catching prawns, BBQ-ing them and having our dinner..

Before this, on Tuesday, my department with my supervisor treated me farewell lunch at the airport @ T3.. With so much attention put on me, seriously they saw the other side of me.. The one who talk alot and maybe funny side.. This is also the first time that I talked so much and engaged in the conversation.. Most of it, were damn funny and really had a good time with them..

On my last day, when I enter my supervisor's room today to give him the Merci chocs I bought, his face turned RED!! It scared me alot, I was tense when his whole face turned red.. haha.. then went on giving the rest of the chocs to my department people and they went on saying all the good things about me and Im happy they all like Merci cos I was contemplating on which type of chocs to buy.. They even open it infront of me to eat.. haha!!

We were having some sort of sharing thingy between one of my collegues and I, she told me that she thought I was scare of her at the beginning because I sounded so stress.. But after that, the thought of hers went away after some time.. I also went on sharing to her about her high expectation and that I needed time to adjust to her style and all.. haha, we always have sharing session esp. on fridays when work is ending cos we want to slack, eh, I mean when we dun have the mood to work!! haha..

Anyway! Just wanna thank Jolene for driving us out whenever we go out to have lunch and at times, go out!! haha..

Look forward to Sunday's K session with them!! haha, hopefully, I will be able to go!

2010-01-30T01:57:00.003+08:00

5 more working days and I'm done with internship!!!!!!!!

The air will smell so much fresher on the following Monday after internship..
Life will feel great!!
Ok, but now something fears me, I might get bored after a while!! I guess this is when plans come in useful!! haha..
That fear aside, I have started to tidy my table(fast right?), try my best to clear as much work as possible so that they will not be so busy when I leave.. I also file everything nicely, just so that they can have easy reference to it.. I wanna end my internship with everything orgainsed, only then can I leave my company in peace..

Tuesday will be my department lunch due to the air show that they will be going from Wed to Fri.. I have plans on what to buy for them and also, I have sort of plan what to email them on my last day of work to thank them.. Before all that, I will have a whole lot of work to complete since it is the first week of the month..

No doubt, at times, I can have very demanding collegues.. On the other hand, I received positive comments about the way I worked.. I guess, this is all about work both good and bad.. Just this week on Thursday, I was praised that I have very good sense of logic and I guess that pretty made my day..

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If that happened more than a year ago, I wouldn't know what and how to react.. Whether to feel happy or sad, but now... NOW, I have wise up and I'm not looking back at what I have or have not done.. All I know now is that, Life is so much better.. so so much better without those foolish act..I paid so much for that painful lesson but it was worth the while.. I always thought what if that day happened but now, that day really happened and I can't be happier.. Take care and all the best, my friend..

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As much as I want to help you, you are not allowing me to.. I dun really know how you are gonna get through this, if you continue to be the way you are now.. It is just not helping, its just like any gambler.. Gambler who will never admit he/she addicted to gambling and never want to seek help for it.. and in the end, the person will end up in either ways.. One, to repent.. Two, to end his/her life..

2010-01-16T02:45:00.002+08:00

Stressful period is coming!! Internship ending in three weeks!!which = to final report and ppt to be done in three weeks!! haha.. Cant really remember what I wanted to blog yesterday when blogger wasn't working, but just a few of what I wanted to write..

I'm missing school really, cos of Logistics camp, cos I went back to school and this time the "missing" is the most ever since I left for internship!! I miss so many events in school and all those camps.. haha.. will blog again when I have the mood..

Meanwhile, I guess Im lazy to blog about new year's day celebration.. but Im feeling positive and happy lately, good start to the year I dread the most cos of army.. but well, I wanna get it over and done with to move on.. haha!! till next time!!

2010-01-01T12:53:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!! Hopefully 2010 will be a good year for everyone!!
will update when I get the pics from last night!!

2009-12-30T21:04:00.003+08:00

Had a merry merry christmas last week, together with loads of chocolates.. haha Correct me if I'm wrong, but from what I know, Christmas lasts for 12 days, so why the belated christmas wishes ? Come on!!

I'm looking forward to tomorrow since Monday at work!! cos it's a half day and new year's eve, it spells happiness!! haha.. but guess what, one day before the day I'm still looking forward to... something really pissed me off at work in the morning and luckily in the afternoon, everything was just fine..

I bet anyone who is good tempered will also be angry.. Some facts before my story, I enjoyed working with the two ladies and gentlemen who I always help.. They are seriously nice people who are also similar like me, who are never early for work or come back lunch on time and are always there to teach me when I'm unsure.. I can say, I met the right people for work.. haha!

So today, one ordinary day, I had outstanding work from yesterday(which is normal).. In the morning, I had to rush because I had reports to do in the afternn and won't be free tomorrow either cos of routine work and half day.. While rushing my work, this lady came to me and told me that this work is urgent and I need to prioritise it.. Fine, I did it as what she said and while doing, more mails come in like nobody's business.. I thought nevermind, can rush through it and finish by this week..

This is the peak, I turned around a couple of times and look at her, she is reading emails after emails and forwarding it to me to complete.. The next time, I turned around, she was talking and laughing on the phone(Personal, not about work) for so damn long and not doing any single shit.. I can no longer stand it already and after the phone call, she came to my table to ask me to print something.. I told her straight in an awful tone that I cannot do everthing single thing by this week! and so she started being nice and told me that not all are important.. do the ones that are important first.. so she scan through and briefly told me the important ones..

Shortly after that, she went off to lunch 10 mins earlier and came back 1 hr and 15 mins late.. that means she took 2 hrs 25 mins for lunch(Not saying that I came back on time too, but earlier than her).. and there she was, knowing that Im not happy, she tried to turn the situation around by telling me there are food on the table, just eat.. Secondly, she came and asked me if everything is alright and I replied yes and she said I sounded stress in the morning.. The last she did was to send me an email about life which reads "When things in your life seem almost too much to handle"..

Look, I don't care about my grade during this attachment.. I know she will be grading me the most(they all give good grades btw), but I dun look at grades.. I'm not piss off by the workload, I took more work previously.. The point is, when she is the only one who can help me by doing some work, she talked on the phone(People did mention before).. it is not an issue in my department because it is politics free..

Despite this, Im still happy at work and am still look forward to tomorrow and everything that is gonna happen!!!

Lastly! Happy New Year!!!

2009-12-19T03:13:00.004+08:00

While hanging out in the night earlier on, one of my bro(not real bro!) said"How he wish he could go back to secondary school and learn chinese again.."

Without a single doubt, I agreed with him esp. so after my few years in poly!! It's not cool to not be able to speak decent chinese.. haha, but thinking back in secondary school, it's a norm not to speak chinese because somehow if you do, you will be called cheena..haha.. and we concluded and know all along that our enviroment affects us.. and it's a good thing Lee Kuan Yew or government is doing sth about to allow students to have interest in chinese or sth along that line..

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Unappreciative bastards should fuck off and be taken out from my social circle..

2009-12-13T20:58:00.008+08:00

People tend to be mistaken that competitors are always the people around or the people who joined a particular competition.. But have you ever taken a step back to think again? that the true competitor is always yourself because in order to win others, you will need to win yourself first..

Winning others should be seen as a bonus instead of your goal & aim and yet some people just don't think it that way.. Everytime you compete, you must try to break your record and I believe it gives you the most sense of satisfaction compared to what others will be able to give you.. Look at it this way, an improvement from your previous result is already winning yourself..

Sometimes, I just don't really understand some people who just wanna win each other when the real competitor is none other than yourself.. This logic is extremely applicable in many areas of your life than you can ever imagine..

Does it set you thinking ?

2009-12-12T01:46:00.008+08:00

You know, I actually have loads of things to type here.. too much for me to recall all at a time but I will always choose what to type here and what to keep with me..

Well, currently I'm meeting my friends whom I havent met for so long, esp. those who just finish their A level.. it's just so awesome to sit down and start chatting together and updating each other about our own life.. I know December will be a good good month!! haha..

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Sometimes, I just feel that I'm taking advantage of how nice people are treating me at work(Pls do not ask me about it) that I feel I don't deserve that kind of treatment.. I feel blessed and contented with it.. How contridicting humans are huh? When they are treated too good, they think they dont deserve it.. When they are treated badly, they just go on complaining about it.. I'm surely guilty of that..

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Seriously, I dun know.. If I had a choice, I wanna cut it all away so that I won't have any problems about it.. This is not the first time I'm facing this, just so tired about it.. Why can't you people be more sensitive ? U know, I can go to extreme ends that I can be heartless? I do not care about what people say about me or how bastard I am towards someone or what, try asking those who I have done that to.. cos there is no such word as regret in my dictionary..

P.S: If you do not understand what I have wrote, dun ask because it's not meant for you to understand.. haha

2009-12-08T23:11:00.004+08:00

It's been a long time since I actually went into blogger to type something out, no particular reason though.. maybe not in the mood for it.. haha.. Many people to thank out there for making my birthday memorable and it's so much better without the flag-pole or tearing underwear shit last year!! haha..

Well, immediately after my birthday, full focus on internship.. though that period seriously suck to the core with all the rushing and everything.. Glad that I managed to pull it through, presented to the lady who I worked most for and received some very positive comments from her.. and also went back to school to present to L.O too.. I dun expect good result from this attachment cos it doesn't really matter to me like always..

People to thank who have made my day mine!!(In sequence of celebration)

1) CIP team!! Thank you guys for the lovely flowers, crumpler bag, dinner feast and cake!!

2)Almadil!! Seriously It was THE surprise, cos I did not sense anything at all till we enter the chalet.. thanks everyone, the night was fun!! and sorry for not being able to join you guys after the first night..

3)My bros!! thanks for the really-filling dinner and always there to celebrate my bday.. thanks again!!

4)My family!! for always celebrating year after year, something to be blessed about and not taken for granted!! and the steam boat was nice!!

5)Chaos!! seriously, the fame I'm getting for the video is really shocking and uncalled for though I dun regret making that speech.. Thanks for always being such a sweet bunch of people and including Cinday for calling me immediately after coming back from M'sia.. It's one of the very best time I spent with you all laughing so much so much and felt so damn happy for I-dun-know what reasons but just so high!!

6)My aunty!! for always making it a point to be generous to me!! appreciate the lunch!!

7)My band of brothers!! I didnt know Kushinbo buffet was treated by all of you till when it was time to bill, haha.. thanks alot, expecting more outings!!

Lastly, it's to everyone who took the effort to call or msg or fb or in anyway including unexpected wishes from people.. Thank you so much cos it made my day mine!!

For pictures, go to my facebook though not all the celebration have pictures!

2009-11-22T23:46:00.004+08:00

I'm extremely happy because I just had an awesome birthday with all the celebrations and the wishes of course!! haha.. Will update about it with pictures very soon after Interim presentation.. Thanks everyone!!

I feel happy as happy a kid now!! haha!!

Loving it..

2009-11-15T21:00:00.003+08:00

Everyone else in the family is going overseas except me.. Macau, China, Malaysia, Thailand.. My parents, brother, aunties, grandaunties and cousin.. Unlike me who is having attachment.. Tell me, how to not feel pathetic?!!?

2009-11-06T23:55:00.001+08:00

I will shut everything, every single thing out of my life that is not worth keeping a second..

2009-10-22T23:38:00.003+08:00

Suddenly I miss Ngee Ann, especially yr 1 and 2 where all the fun and joy exist, when I enjoyed myself so much!! ok, I think it's all because of the chinese songs I'm listening to now, I started listening to them when I just enter poly.. get it?

Don't be mistaken, I'm enjoying my internship life too!! The best part, I can wake up so much later compared to going down to Ngee Ann.. haha but now, I'm entering a phase when work is no longer challenging but demanding!! I know, I have been whining on my blog.. but when I'm free, I'm damn free.. When busy, everyone starts asking me to do work!

2009-10-11T03:08:00.000+08:00

If words can bring me down, it would have already brought me down a long time ago..

2009-10-09T00:19:00.003+08:00

Work was not that bad today but cannot help but to keep yawning and yawning till tears flow out after having my lunch.. haha.. Satisfied with my performance at work today, but at times I can really get demoralise and feel so-damn-stupid.. really, I feel stupid stupid.. haha..

The scent, voice and sight still lingers around.. At times, I wonder...............

2009-10-07T22:35:00.003+08:00

I want to rant this out, Just when I thought I could relax for the last two hours for work, I was bloody hell wrong!!!!!!!!!!!! Emails started to come again!! but in anyway, felt very happy today cos I cleared tons and tons of work which will lessen my workload tmr!!

Anyway the bad thing about my work is that, we work with US side alot.. so when I end my work, they will start in the night.. which just means I need to make sure that I clear my work so that they can start working on it and be efficient!! haha..

Felt bad today, cos I did my first mistake which is not that big but will cause more trouble for the US side.. haha.. but there is always a first time for everything..

Staying very very positive about work and I agree with this now, Learning takes a life time.. Till next time..........

2009-09-27T01:22:00.004+08:00

It's time to blog about my internship!!!!!

In case if anyone is wondering what is my jobscope?
My department is Supply Chain Management-Material planning.. Every shipment or goods that is entering the company, Thales aerospace or leaving the company, I need to keep track of it. I'm mainly dealing with In flight entertainment and other aeroplane parts like the screen to watch movie and play games.. On top of that, I need to purchase parts when the stock are low and how I know whether stocks are low or not? I need to do three reports on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday for different countries in order to know the stock level and Thursday is the worst for me.. Whenever the month starts, I also need to do monthly reports and my first monthly report will be on this coming Thursday.. and the worst part is that this is not all, there are so much more to my job!! anyway the good part of this is that, time really flies when I'm doing work but pay wise, dun even want to think about it.. haha!

For the past two weeks, I have been on time or early for work.. haha!! that's an achievement and I have been enjoying my work so far.. but it might just come to an end when Brandon and Jasper leave on wednesday and I will be all alone in my department, answering and responsible for everything I do.. Not exactly alone but no one to disturb or have fun with while working.. haha!!

anyway both of them actually left me two thick stack of paper for filing!! wa, damn bad.. but nvm, if they really leave me to file, I will make sure I leave four thick stack of paper for filing for the next intern and say it's a tradition!! haha..

Work aside, lunch time are always to look forward to because we are not short of lunch time entertainment in pantry, we always da bao our food back to eat!! and you will see the other side of Geok Ting, literally the other side.. haha.. shall not explain further about it.. haha!! she was damn nice to make those kind of party bag on her last day of work on Friday.. haha..

Anyway shall end with this,
Laugh the hardest for the past two weeks during work, hopefully not a nightmare for me for the next two weeks!!

2009-09-26T00:04:00.030+08:00

For our one and only lovely lovely Princess!!!

Oops!! Wrong picture, it should be........

To start off this celebration, Vivien, Dong Qiang and I had one meet-up and a few phone calls secretly.. I think we are just oh-so good with me slacking just a little more than them.. HAHA!! In our plan, we have chalet at Ubin or hotel and we decided it should be a hotel stay!!

The story is about to unfold............

We lied to our princess that Dong Qiang has this secondary school band camp that needs people to help out, which he turns to us for help.. Must I say that she was extremely convinced by this lie??!?!?! haha!

Surprisingly, I was the earliest to reach bugis!! buy all the stuff needed, and proceed on to the hotel ibis to start preparing.. it was around 3 plus.. haha!!

Behing the scene,

When both the princess and actress Vivien arrived

Settled down, with Shiuan Shiuan trying to absorb everything

There is this saying, the difference between a princess and a normal girl is that, a princess looks pretty even when she is crying..... doubtful!!

After achieving what we we wanted which was to make her cry cry and cry even more,Haha!!
we went for dinner at bugis junction sakae sushi which our princess insisted to treat us,

After dinner, we sneak 3 boxes of durians into the hotel room,
No pictures for durian because we just wanted to enjoy it..

And it was party time!! Pillow fight and wrapping everyone in the blanket, trying to lift it up, took many pictures, went down to the hotel lounge to watch soccer,drank champagne.. It was when we laugh the hardest and perspired the most,

I forgot what this is, but I use Vivien as my bait to get our princess and it's damn useful.. I told Vivien that she need to get our princess before I free Vivien.. HAHA!

LOOK AT VIVIEN'S FACE!!! I cannot stop laughing whenever I see this picture!!!

Before I end everything, just a tinny, weeny confession, actually before this whole thing, Dong Qiang and I made a pact that we wont be each other's target to shoot for the night but our target were the 2 others..... haha!!

From: The oh-so-good planners, actors and actress.. Vivien was our leader in acting for that day and whenever Shiuan Shiuan is not around(get what I mean?).. both of them are professional actress, you can trust me on that.. HAHAHA!!

Last but not least, Happy birthday and may all your wishes come true!!
May you always bring laughters to the people around you and start being nicer to me!!

Please do not keep the promise that we made to each other in 20 yrs time when we turn 40, I will suffer even more!

2009-09-10T05:16:00.002+08:00

I have exactly three more days excluding today to adjust my body clock to usual.. I doubt I can do it with a short span of three days.. screw it, not that I really care now..

Maybe I'm wrong,
Maybe what other people see is correct,
I would love to prove to others that what they see is not true,
but somehow at times, I am finding it difficult to do just that..

2009-09-08T02:57:00.002+08:00

I will try my best to keep this blog alive!! and add more picture whenever I can.. haha anyway I have alot to say and now is the best time since I have nothing else to do.. The past week has been a blast with many meet-ups and can I just tell you how much I love this part of the year because there are so many reunion and meet-up, of course more to come when the year is about to end.. Looking very much forward to this year end.. Anyway for the entire of last week, I didn't have enough sleep but who really cares about sleeping when you are enjoying yourself rite?!

The zoo event was really fun with cip team and was much better than what I was expecting.. Chalet with MDES 5th comm was also a blast on sunday after exams.. Looking at the amount of food we ordered, it was enough to feed double the number of people who were present.. so many of us just whack the food, JUST only.. haha.. oh yea, how can I forget that we had a photoshoot in the chalet at 6am?!! yes 6am when half of us were awake and the other half sleeping.. Thank goodness I belonged to the half awake, we have Dong Qiang professional camera and camera stand(however u call it, haha) hence the name photoshoot.. haha.. Also, went to watch "the proposal" in town.. The movie was damn funny but I fell asleep for a few minutes at the start of the movie, was really exhausted.. haha!! went back to school for useless internship briefing.. seriously waste of time!!

On friday, My friends and I decided a few days ago to have an impromptu korean bbq and steamboat outside my house.. My brother and his friend joined us too.. actually all my friends are also his friends.. haha, cos all from band also.. so we went shengsiong to buy everything, came home prepared and ta-da.. our steamboat was successful and we had small choc fondue without a fountain of course.. haha.. ANYWAY, I went for jogging on Sunday with my bro and cousin cos they are training for standard chart marathon and I accompanied them although I was really tired from morning church and family lunch at cathay.. u know that kind super duber tired, those only sleep for 2 hours a night that kind yea!! haha..

anyway to all my classmates who are reading this, I'm really sorry for not going the class outings!! I will make it up for the next one!!

2009-08-29T06:09:00.004+08:00

The time now is 6.10am, have to bathe at 7, be in school by 9am without having any sleep.. tell me, how am I suppose to survive with the less than two hours nap I took in the evening?? haha..

I know it has been long since I last blogged, just too lazy to even log into my account.. haha.. anyway exams are over, holidays are here but I'm not feeling any different.. Exam week has been almost like a relax week for me, haha.. On wednesday after my 2nd last paper, I feel kind of demoralise somehow because I knew that I'm not going to do well for it or rather I started to have a feeling that I might fail the one module overall.. so not wanting to start revision on my last paper just yet, I went swensen together with my friends for supper over at airport.. haha, super last minute decision but extremely fun.. haha.. Dil treated all of us for swensen and seriously he was damn funny when I called him.. I told him that we are going over to his place n pick him up for supper in 10 mins!! he didnt even asked us where we were going? and he even wanted to wear singlet, luckily he didnt.. haha.. mind you, we started talking the moment he enter the car and we didnt even tell him yet.. so when we reach airport, he was cursing at us saying things like "wat if he wore a singlet there n all".. haha.. super funny..

anyway back to my exams, so on the next day thursday, I reluctantly started writing on my paper for the revision and started memorising them only on fri, 11am and my paper is at 2pm!! I thought I was gonna fail it but I guess most of wat I have memorise came out and was from the revision paper.. haha.. so I should be able to pass it.. haha..

Meanwhile, just want to enjoy my two weeks of holiday before internship starts!!
Glad that we talk it out or rather discuss about it, I didnt mean to be angry.. really..

and YES, I'M GONNA BE ON TIME LATER!!!!!

2009-08-03T23:07:00.002+08:00

Pardon me for my previous post!! haha, sudden burst of anger..

Anyway today was good!! Felt like old school.. This feeling is damn shiok, and I've counted that it has been already 5 or 6 years.. Dinner was fantastic plus the company.. What a good way to end the day!? If only everyday is like that!!! haha!!

2009-08-01T01:55:00.002+08:00

I'm freaking piss off now..
Seriously, I dun know wat is wrong with you??
Is it very hard to even have a decent conversation??

2009-07-29T20:56:00.001+08:00

Why is it that always after I made the decision in this matter, I'll always go back n re-think??

2009-07-29T08:07:00.004+08:00

Confusion always come from contradiction..

and contradiction happens because

the mind does not feel like the heart,

and the heart does not think like the mind..

When your hearts say sth, and your mind telling you the other..

Somehow, phobia increase and confident goes down,
how do u instill confidence back??

Going through the same old thing again seems impossible..

Yes, and I'm early for my 8am lesson!! haha!

2009-07-26T23:43:00.004+08:00

Thought that I should spend sometime to update on this blog! haha..
Shall start off with my trip to Bangkok.. Apart from not having enough sleep, everything was simply good.. and it just shows how much I miss taking plane or going overseas for a long time now due to reasons like my brother was in the army.. The trip was all about eating good food, shopping till your legs are tired, massage and maybe enjoying the skyline of bangkok.. nah, but it's something like Singapore, nothing really amazing.. and the last time I went to bangkok was 10 yrs old.. goodness, it has change quite alot.. Personally, I like the massage which was dirt cheap as compared to Singapore and also the food esp. the breakfast on 76th level overlooking the entire bangkok.. yea and I stay in the tallest hotel/tower in bangkok which was worth every cent because people pay to go up and I can just go up anytime I like.. Saturday night was the worse, because so many people were rushing up.. but lucky for us, we were out of the hotel for dinner.. haha!! ok, I guess it pretty sum up my trip..

Now, it's all about finishing projects,tests and exams till a short break..

Paved with adversities, believe and faith is all I need.. I pray that everything will just turn out fine.. It's my doing, there's nothing more to say..

2009-07-08T00:28:00.004+08:00

BAD BAD DAY!!!!

Waited damn long for my dentist to be done with the patient before mine, ended up cabbing to school so that I will not be late esp. during this lecturer's class who always kpkb ppl for coming late for his lesson!! haha.. Complete Tourism project at 6pm only to know that I have a very very bad headache..it was unbearable till I decided to cab back home during half my journey home.. Enough to summarise my day !??!?! oh yea, and I receive yet another warning email for one of my module.. kind of expected, from now on, absent from school=taking MC.. and my MSN decided not to work on me today.. siannnnnnnnn

2009-07-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

been an extremely bad week so far!!! haha.. Started with fever on Saturday night, decided to go to doctor on Monday and got 3 days MC.. and last night, my stomach got so pain and unbearable.. only manage to sleep at 4am and cough is visiting me too!! oh well, when your sick, everything just come..

putting that aside, school have started and projects are coming also.. this holiday been really good and slack,sleeping in the morning and waking up only in the afternoon.. manage to do almost everything I wanted for the holiday including slacking! wahaha.. okok till next time

2009-06-20T02:08:00.003+08:00

You need to learn
You need to learn
You need to learn

that not everything will go in your way even if you have give in more than you can ever imagine..

Be strong
Be strong
Be strong

if this time you fall, learn from it instead of complaining how much effort you have put in cos that's not gonna change any fact..

That's why some ppl blame this world for being unfair, unjust and cruel but have you ever thought that living in an unfair, unjust and cruel world will help you to

Learn
be stronger and
be a person that you can never imagine yourself to be at the beginning..

Problems are there for you to be stronger and not to demoralise you..

remember it alrite??

2009-06-12T00:57:00.003+08:00

Wish List

1) For all the pimplesssssss to disappear cos it hurting like shit now..
2) For all the ulcers in my mouth and I think swollen gum to disappear so that I can eat properly again..

Test was pretty alright today with mindmaps and notes written over it.. haha.. and I finally stop before I get into a pathetic state.. haha I should indulge myself in something better than that..

2009-06-06T00:37:00.003+08:00

Finally, all the tests this week has ended!! Left one more to go but nah, it doesnt really matter.. enjoy first, study when the common test is nearer.. haha.. today's paper was a killer.. only focus on questions that L3's test paper which they have taken earlier in the week.. in the end, it was a totally different paper and I think I will fail it.. haha..

anyway went out with 3Js today, been a few months since we last go out for a simple dinner and yet again cindy didnt join us.. (Please feel guilty if your reading this, haha!!) Joanne treated us thai cusine dinner while Jacintha treated us anderson ice cream!! haha.. and Jiaying and I just enjoy only.. Thanks alot and dun worry, even if I dun have attachment(choy choy!!), I will still treat u all later in the year!!haha.. Feel quite lucky n blessed cos a few have already treated me while there is still those who promise to treat me but waiting for the chance to treat!!

haha.. anyway I should go n sleep now.. I dun wanna be tired tomorrow!! haha!

2009-06-03T23:06:00.002+08:00

At the rate my teeths are moving, it's not realistic anymore to say that I can take my braces out by end-july as targeted.. maybe after a couple more months, hopefully.. I want to take it out asap!! anyway I think it's my fault partially because I have not been putting rubber band regularly everyday or night.. but every morning, waking up with a sore and painful mouth is not a good way to start my day either.. haha.. nvm, I will be putting it regularly with extra rubber band whenever I can.. I dun wanna waste anymore time already!!

Empty vessel make the most noise!! haha

This thought suddenly struck my mind today, it's kind of random but I feel it makes sense.. If a person has changed for the worst, is it a good or bad thing that he realised that he/she has changed to another person?? Good, because he/she realised the transformation.. Bad, because he/she knows but will continue being himself/herself.. It's as if you made a mistake, admit it, and won't want to change.. so is this better than not knowing and not admitting the mistake? then again, it is not the person's fault that he dun want to change because transformation is always taking place.. complicated yoooo!!!!! haha..

Looking forward to this saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-01T00:20:00.004+08:00

E-learning week is just another week full of assignments!!!!!!! to think that many of us are looking forward to it.. haha.. anyway went out quite often during the week.. haha.. and I realised I cannot remember things very well nowadays.. haha..

anyway picturesssssssssss,

Flyer on Tuesday!!!!

ECP a few weeks back!!

2009-05-20T00:32:00.002+08:00

I can forgive and forget, but whatever you do now or in the future will not be able to make up for whatever you have done..
Thanks but no thanks..

2009-05-18T01:18:00.002+08:00

My day started off so well and ended even better, from the first minute till the last.. Superb.. haha.. Been a long time since I feel so damn good.. haha.. God was part of it.. haha..

2009-05-09T15:45:00.003+08:00

Just when I thought it would be a boringgggg Friday, haha it turns out fun.. Dong Qiang and I met, wanting to play some table-tennis but later we found out that we couldn't loan any table-tennis bats.. and came our back-up plan to bowl.. haha..in search of places to bowl, we realise the east has many bowling alleys.. anyway so we ended up at Safra Yishun after quite a while of taking a bus to Ang Mo Kio and walking around.. we sort of felt lazy and decided just to cab down to Safra.. We went striaght to the bowling alley and the waiting list was longggggggg.. down to our motto: NO bowling, we won't leave the place.. and we stick to that.. So we played pool,chill and slack ,try our luck and to understand how to play jackpot and then we started bowling at about 1am.. haha.. we played 4 games, and we were on form!! Our scores were very close to each other.. haha.. I think considering the no. of games we played, I think it's one of my best scores, having my lowest 100 points and highest 128.. haha.. after the game, we ended up at macs before going home.. and looking at the no. of rats at the coffee shop nearby made me understand why Singapore food hygiene standards are not that good..

Before I forget, Last week's BBQ and marina barrage were gooddddd.. with more than enough food and great company.. haha.. Superb..

I need to start attending school regularly before I get myself into deeper trouble..

2009-05-08T00:12:00.003+08:00

Chain of thoughts

1.Don't take happiness for granted, because it might just end without u knowing..

2.Different lives have different ending,all I can say is that we will live to see ours..

3.If there are no contradiction or different views in this world, then peace will be everywhere.. So why do people contradict themselves?

How I wish I have solution to all the problems? Going school can be quite a chore at times apart from the distance.. and at times, I really wonder.......

and this part of my life is called taking a step back and not forgetting slacking.. haha!!

2009-04-28T22:49:00.003+08:00

School's been such a boring place recently.. I rather be busy and on-the-ball than being so free.. haha.. need to get use to it and seriously, I need to find a motivation to go school and at least find out what the module is all about.. haha..

On the other hand, there are still some stuff to look forward to in the week and next week!!

This is rare, I woke up on Monday and Tuesday an hour earlier for nothing.. For Monday, it was because I thought we started school at 11 but it turns out to be 12.. For Tuesday, I was suppose to have dental appointment in the morning but suddenly my dentist had something to attend to but luckily, I haven't left house yet..

I see what others don't see, the other side of you is just so disgusting.. annoying

2009-04-23T20:45:00.003+08:00

We are the Champion!!

Ever since the first day I stepped into Ngee Ann till now, I just dun get it why MDE is always cut above the rest? haha.. Whether or not, getting runner-ups or doing events that others will always want to learn from.. Of cos, there are times that we don't win anything but I can't really recall any at the moment!! haha, anyway I think being the best in Ngee Ann runs in MDE culture.. haha!

I was just deciding whether or not to go for the mass dance night with my feverish, hot and cold body.. it sucks, no joke.. haha.. but to witness MDE joy and happiness, it's all worth it.. I felt all the school were putting up a performace or rather concert instead of mass dance and seriously, FMS deserve the prize because I thought they were very good.. and ME's costumes were damn nice.. haha..

Will update about camp pinata soon!! I dun even think I'm fit for school tmr, oh well.. I'll decide tmr.. till then..

2009-04-10T02:02:00.004+08:00

U know, though, many organising committee think that I'm very mean to the both of them.. but what they dun know is that, they also got bully me!!!!! this pic speaks for itself!! haha

Today alone, they took bamboo stick to hit my butt and then Yee Xiang got high!! haha!! and now, they are blaming me for something which i didn't do!! haha!

2009-04-09T01:49:00.002+08:00

My laptop didn't die on me or rather I didn't give it a chance to die on me!! anyway I sent it to acer to repair my webcam and mouse key problem and at the same time to reformat my laptop.. haha! going to collect it tmr!! days without laptop are bear-able but it just feels a little handicap without it!! anyway I realised that my past few posts were very emotional la, it was filled with sadness, anger and disappointment.. but now, it is all over already.. I'm back to my old-self!! haha

Had fun and enjoyed myself for the last few weeks and of cos trial camp!! I'm really happy because I played butter hill during trial camp!! I think it will be my first and last time playing it, i dragged Yee Xiang to play with me though I said we will just have a look at how the game is being played.. haha!! Throughout the entire camp,I slept for only 5 hours in two nights!! but i managed to regain all of it today!! haha.. super shag by the time i got home!! haha.. oh yea, and I won't forget how I got my forfeit during the start of the camp!! Unfair!! haha.. but it was all enjoyable..

last but not least, hopefully my laptop wont cause my any problem tmr esp. with the connection to the internet.. haha!!

2009-03-23T02:24:00.002+08:00

Within all these emotions and anger that is within me, there is still faith and believe calling me to have trust.. only with trust and faith then I will be able to find peace and even if it's the hardest obstacle that I need to overcome.. I'm sure I'm able to with faith and believe.. Because even the night has to give way to the day..

2009-03-22T22:41:00.005+08:00

It seems to me that you will not be happy till u piss everyone off rite? talking behind everyone's back, thinking that it will not be exposed.. doing things that you think might make people be please with you or thank you, without knowing how to do this correctly.. and to make things worst, you either have a short term memory or u just simply dun understand my english.. you think that you are so-damn-smart and an influential person, that is the biggest mistake man.. U know your mistake yet u just won't stop making somemore.. seriously, stop pissing everyone off and it will do you good..

When u dislike what you are doing, you should stop because you will end up hating the damn shit..Now, i get the whole picture.. I felt being used..

2009-03-21T00:41:00.002+08:00

I have tried to convince people that it is not as bad as what it seems but yet now, I'm trying to convince myself.. I doubt it before, but it happened again.. there are really no signs to show that it's improving.. I had a foresight of what will be happening and true enough it happened.. I always had this attitude, to give all that I can.. I know, for fact that this is not my all and I will not intend to give somemore because I will do what is needed of me and necessary and make sure no one and I mean no one will even give a negative comment about it.. and I know it can come true with my guidance.. and this will be my one and only pride.. other than that, I will give it all a miss.. I dun see any point in forcing things that are not within your control and the only end result will be leaving yourself in despair.. that, I believe is never an option for me.. The road is still long and I can see the engine of the car and where it is heading towards..

Sometimes, it is not that I do not want to care but I find it hard to swallow.. Maybe the email is a message to boost me up but for now, nothing is gonna work.. well, let's wait and see..

2009-03-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

Mentally and Physically tired!!
My body is aching like nobody's business..
Now, my mindset is back to square one.. won't try to change it!!
Just let me enjoy my holiday like how everyone is enjoying it..

2009-03-05T01:41:00.003+08:00

It's freedom for the 7 weeks!! and my aim this time is to enjoy life to the fullest!!
haha.. and now that I have time to enjoy, I will try my best to enjoy like as if there is no tomorrow.. haha!!

Been relaxing and chilling these few days and of cos meeting up with friends.. Hopefully it can make up for the times that I didnt get the chance to go out with them.. haha..

I really need to kick some bad habits of mine.. I think it's really killing me.. haha!! robbing me to be exact! ok.. Anyway I'm quite fed-up with receiving last minute information.. not to say that I'm busy but it always cork up my plans and I hate that to the max.. I don't like to rot and not doing anything useful because it will feel like as if I have wasted my life.. so I tend to plan things to do, whether is it to relax or wat but everything has a purpose.. It happened to me far too many times.. no pointing of fingers to anyone or anything, because we are humans afterall and we tend to forget things.. but it's just very annoying.. really.. I'm perfectly fine with pending status and receiving one day before the actually day.. we all need to have a sense of urgency, it will help very much..

haha ok.. I think I just needed to vent that out!!!

2009-02-23T15:04:00.003+08:00

Finally, a load off my shoulder!! I can breathe much better!! oh man.. Feel relieved after E-commerce and supply chain management exams.. it feels like holiday now with only one more paper to go on friday!! gonna try to start studying tonight to prevent last minute studying again.. haha.. For the past few days, loads of my brain cells have been killed with all the memorising to do.. imagine one day with 5 chapters almost the entire module.. haha!! ok, i had a week to study for it but didn't really study so it's my fault.. haha.. got plans for the holiday and I want my social life to increase by alot alot alot!! and of course staying home more often.. actually, I like staying home alot but after so many years, I almost couldn't remember how it feels like.. haha!! Good luck to those taking exams!!!

2009-02-20T21:18:00.002+08:00

Many many many thoughts!! anyway been staying at home most of the days during this study break but studying seems to be a big barrier to me.. Been watching tv shows, getting enough rest,eating and minimum studying.. haha.. Good rest though!!
1 down, 2 more modules to go!! faster come, faster go!!

1st thought: People always say treasure your time and what you do because life is short.. No doubt, i did it, still doing and will continue doing it.. but at times, just how do you treasure it with all the stress, busy and hectic days?! it's hard, never easy.. the only way to convince yourself that it is a blessing to be busy and stress because not everyone have the fortune to be busy and stress.. and after these stressful period, surely we will learn something from it and continue carving our life..

2nd thought: recession and more recession.. it takes about a year or slightly more to enter recession and a few years out of it.. this cycle will continue over and over again.. when the economy recovers, the standard of living will increase sky high, prices will go up like nobody's business and when people do not have money to pay bills and everything.. they will go to a bank for loan, when the people got no money to pay the banks, bad debts will increase.. when there are so many bad debts, banks have no more money.. when they got no more money and all, the world will enter a recession.. salary will go down, prices will start to drop and standard of living will also go down.. and because of this, the average and low income working people will be affected thanks to all those rich people.. anyway I believe that when this economy recovers, a new era will be waiting to start.. because this time round, governments are doing something to help their citizens.. it's not only happening in Singapore but also in other countries..

haha ok, that's all folks, I think i need to start studying for exams.. haha!!

2009-02-13T00:34:00.002+08:00

I sat down on my chair, playing songs from my laptop with book and notes on my study table doing everything and anything to get knowledge into my brain for my test today.. I have not done that for a few years.. that, is an achievement for me!! My motivation: it was already 9 pm yest and I realised how unprepared I was for the test.. phew,it was really good studying and I'll be happy with my result.. I know I've done my very best and it's kind of shocking to me that I could get so much knowledge to my brain in a night.. Just a few days back, I thought to myself, I can never go back to the past when I will just sit down and do some real studying.. maybe I never did.. hahahaha! oh well, I need to shut up and do somemore studying for days ahead..

On the other note, some people can leave me with deep admiration and respect for them while some can really leave me in despair and confused.. All I want to say is that I admire and respest this pair of parents whose son is physically challenged but yet they are so strong!!

2009-02-06T00:15:00.003+08:00

This is my Chemical Logistics project group!!

Tomorrow is our presentation for the video!! and I look stupid in it!! haha.. I always look stupid in video even in Ecom !! haha.. nvm, it's for the project and it's kind of funny too!!

You are just too complicated and I have no intention of understanding this puzzle of yours.. If one day, I decide to tell you, I doubt you will understand.. I'm sorry but I know you will do just fine..

2009-02-04T23:58:00.002+08:00

Today surely didn't feel like as if our exams are round the corners.. 2 tables of mahjong, 8 of us from our class met to play mahjong in the late morning.. Mind you, we only decided yesterday to play mahjong today over at tong's house.. If only, we can be as enthu to study, we will surely pass our exams with flying colours.. haha!! ok, anyway I've learnt a new word from Wei Hong today, it's "pu na ni".. somehow, it sounds vulgar and it will be heard more in class esp. to Wei Hong.. haha!!

2009-02-03T00:49:00.002+08:00

Skipping tomorrow's morning lesson/ presentation is a big no-no for me.. haha.. Cos I have already receive the final warning letter for the module.. but look at the time now, I dun think I will be sleeping anytime soon.. Anyway receiving the warning letter is not something really proud of but look on the positive side, how many people are able to receive warning letter while studying in poly? haha.. I belong to the special few!! haha cos I believe that receiving warning letter does not equal to failing the module.. haha, maybe it's too early for me to say that.. but I will pray and make sure that don't happen to me!! anyway back to doing some school work!!

2009-01-31T01:02:00.004+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year Everyone!!

Prior to lunar new year, Committee outing a.k.a celebrating for Vivien and Dong Qiang's birthday at Holland Village that friday.. after which, we went queensway to buy some stuff.. haha!!

Let this picture do the talking!! and it's "stolen" from Rainee's Lj.......

On the Sat, we had camp Kaiser in school!! anyway I didnt have any group to lead cos I was in charge of games together with Jonas.. haha.. it's bad yo! I rather lead a group!! haha.. no pictures but really glad that everyone enjoyed because little preparation was done for this camp.. about 2 to 3 meeting about this and ta da, it's camp!! This is only the start for the preparation for FOC.. many more to come!!

Followed by reunion dinner and CNY!! To me, CNY= Food, Angpows, updates on families and more food!! haha.. and the best part, after the first few days of CNY, i stopped coughing so much!! though i ate quite alot.. haha!!

well, now i really need to buck up and start studying cos I dun really have any idea what the topics are for all the modules.. On the other hand, I'm thinking of investing on a printer at home.. If anyone knows any printer that is cheap, pls let me know!!!

2009-01-23T15:33:00.008+08:00

Here is the Surprise celebration for both Vivien and Dong Qiang on Sunday!!

The day started off early in the morning, We went to OLPS chruch to collect the cheque.. Waited for an hour for the person to pass us the cheque.. Haha!

All of us left in separate ways after that.. Went home to take a nap!! Haha!

About in the afternoon, Shiuan Shiuan went to meet Vivien for shopping but they did not shop alot!! haha.. cos when they felt like going to Far East, I have already met Dong Qiang to shop for our CNY and we were heading to far east.. We planned this to meet them first and I must say there was a little luck in it because Dong Qiang actually had something on.. but becos he needed to do CNY shopping and so we met..

In fact the entire day, Shiuan Shiuan and I messaged each other about our whereabouts.. and their code names were hilarious.. Vivien's code was "Ugly pig" and Dong Qiang's code was "Big pervert".. haha.. When we were messaging at a point in time, Dong Qiang was trying pants, So i messaged Shiuan Shiuan" Big pervert trying his pants".. haha!! Shiuan wanted to burst out laughing but at least she tolerated it.. wahaha! okok.. and to cut things short, I brought Big pervert and Shiuan Shiuan brought Ugly pig to S'pore flyer's seafood paradise for dinner!!

During Dinner, we told them that that's it for our surprise!! But actually we had another surprise.. Shiuan Shiuan said that she needed to meet her friend .. haha..she really make it seem that she is meeting her friend to the extent that I thought she is "really" meeting her friend.. haha!! Then she actually went to buy 2 slice of cake while the rest of us went to the merlion to chill, waiting for her.. Somehow, our surprise-from-behind failed so I had to bluff them that Shiuan Shiuan sprain her ankle while walking to us.. I was trying hard not to laugh while running to Shiuan Shiuan.. and then the 2nd surprise!!

Last but not least, Happy birthday and may all your wishes come true!! haha!

Oh yea, and the day cannot end with wanting to throw Shiuan Shiuan and Vivien into the S'pore river!!

We tried carrying Vivien but ltr gave up for......

2009-01-21T22:13:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Vivien!!!
Hope you like the surprise!!

Wil update food chain and the surprise celebration when I received the photos from Vivien!! She is busy going out and all.. haha!!

Today marks the end of the interview-ing session for camp.. I didn't know it'll be so tiring, leaving school late means reaching home late.. haha!! Interviewing people is quite fun and interesting but at times, can be boring.. haha!! Laugh quite alot in the room.. Overall, manage to see the different type of people going for this camp.. very interesting actually.. Well, now for the bad side..

Can someone enlighten me as to how can someone have the cheek to pick up a phone call or msg during the interview with 9 pairs of eyes at you?! I totally have no idea how can that happen.. It didn't happen on 1 person coming for the interview only..My phone was on the table during the interview and it suddenly vibrated, I apologised for that and did not even look at the msg.. and you are the person coming for an interview.. Where is the respect for those sitting in front of you? Seriously, this is basic respect.. If you think it's informal, it's perfectly fine.. but picking up the phone call to say a sentence when you are speaking during the interview is unacceptable at all.. For goodness sake, learn some manners.. When we interview you, we are not your friends during that interview.. It really make me wonder how you were brought up.. Oh well, my impression of these ppl is not bad yet but I guess it's a matter of time.. we will see how it goes..

Anyway will update tmr or sth again when I get the photos!! It will be a photo post next, I hope..haha!!

2009-01-17T23:20:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since this flag-pole-ing thing happened in my class for all the birthday dudes.. and always behind those scene(s) is the birthday boy today.. It was torturing for him for about 2 to 3 hours.. He even couldn't finish his plate of rice which to him is not enough for a lunch.. I promise is such a pleasure see-ing him in pain.. Revenge is sweet, Chee Tong.. Balloons starting the ball rolling of his birthday celebration, bomb bags to create sparks, spray ribbons to dirty him and of cos flag-pole-ing for closing ceremony.. He is afraid of balloons cos he said is like a bomb, he claims..

Please Enjoy!

Lastly, Happy Birthday and may all your wishes come true!!

Will update food chain soon!!

2009-01-14T23:55:00.004+08:00

Am glad that we managed to pull off the show..

There was only one thing that filled my mind on my way home and it's food!! Had only 2 chicken pie in the afternoon and I survived till 11pm for dinner.. haha..

It all started on mon when Joanne msged me to be the emcee with her.. she told me that SOE-MDE singing competition rehearsal was very dry and she needed help.. actually I was quite reluctant about it, speaking in front of about 200 ppl is not a joke at all.. moreover, there wasn't time for me to prepare at all.. so i decided to help her to brain storm of how-not-to make-the competition-dry.. and had very little sleep that night..

The next day, I told her my plans and how to make it more entertaining and stuff like that.. and when I found out that I couldn't shift my dental appointment on wed, I really didn't want to be the emcee..

I was being extremely fickle minded.. In fact, I never been so fickle minded before about deciding something.. Then today, my throat was very painful and I called her in the morning and told her, I dun think I can be the emcee with you.. could hear that she sounded really sad after that ar.. so after class, I called her to meet her and discuss..

Fast-forward

She followed me to my dentist so to bring me back to school! Then, I didnt really have a choice already.. haha! After dentist, I felt nervous about it and the script was not ready at all and that was 3 hrs before the performance.. So When we reached school, we started preparing and practicing it.. Not enough time=STRESS! so choing all the way till the competition started.. so basically, everything was last minute.. Alot of impromtu and last min decision..

I'm glad that we manage to entertain the 200 people there with all the stuff and it was really a good experience.. Received many comments both good and bad.. For the negative part, it was draggy and we didnt really focus on every contestant.. which I felt so too.. of cos, I'm sure there are more negative comments about it.. but when there are bad, there are also good comments..
The comment that I'm damn happy is that a contestant came up to me and said "you don't look like a penguin!! you dun look like one" and i said yea, i agree with you.. haha.. it's worth being happy over it.. Lecturers give comments "Wow! great! it couldn't be better" and "both of you are really good emcees and there is a good chemistry between both of you".. haha.. yes, i think its the suan-ing part.. last but not least, this comment"It's the best among those I've attended in SOE"..

As for the contestants, I guess after this kind of competition, there will be controversy.. everyone who performed are already winners, to be selected from the audition is something really to be proud of.. and to those who will be representing MDE in SOE level, all the best and do mde proud!!

All in all, it was a good experience and also I had fun with it.. Most importantly, I hope la.. hope only, whatever happened inside stay there!! haha.. the best is to forget.. wahaha..

2009-01-12T01:40:00.003+08:00

I've caculated the no. of hours I have missed out on lessons last week, and it sum up to 13 hours.. That's alot of hours for a week, probably record breaking in my school life in NP.. haha.. I hope it won't happen again and most importantly, I cannot afford to.. If not, I might get de-barred from exams.. 4 more weeks, one month more.. need to start bucking up!!

2009-01-10T01:31:00.004+08:00

I realised,many people around me are also facing the same problems as I am.. Being stress!!
Main problem: So many to do, so little time!! haha!
anyway just Jiayou!! Everything will eventually be on the right path.. we will all get through this stressful period together!!

2009-01-08T22:56:00.003+08:00

I won't deny that I'm feeling stress!! This seriously suck as compared to my "take-it-easy" attitude.. This "take-it-easy" attitude is slowly leaving me already.. Everything around me is just increasing the tension.. One main worry now is my studies.. It sucks like hell..

I felt staying home is much better than going to school where so many work are awaiting.. This is what I call avoiding the problem and it's only temporary.. I still have to do all the work eventually.. and who knows? I will turn out to be a much better person who can take stress in his stride!! haha!!

2009-01-08T00:28:00.002+08:00

Being confident is good, but being over confident will cause you problems.. I'm facing these problems now and it kind of suck..

When you know just by taking one more step, you will fall off the hill.. Will you take that step?
Blame me for being stupid, cos I took it, knowing that the end result will be like as expected.. But I know there wasn't a choice for me, is either do or die and of cos I did it.. and the end result is as expected which is not positive..

Oh well, it's my fault but I'm not gonna let it pull me down.. or I should say"I'm not that easily pulled down"..

You need to know what is bad before knowing what is good..

2009-01-07T00:14:00.005+08:00

Treasure your time here on earth because you might not know when it will be taken away.. At times, not even with short notice.. This blog, http://shandysim.blogspot.com/ is a blog you should read and realise how a girl, so young can be so courageous, optimistic and have her fighting spirit till her very last breath..

If she can be so positive and have a burning flame with her, no one else should feel negative for death is something, in this world that you can never control..

She had gained many peoples' respect including mine.. Dying with the highest respect is everything u can asked for..

2009-01-04T22:16:00.002+08:00

The difference between impossible and possible often lies in a man's determination!!
There is a fine line between an excuse and a reason..

2009-01-02T00:32:00.003+08:00

I'm preparing for very hectic weeks ahead of me!! haha.. what a way to start my year?! but dun have a choice either simply because there are too much work for me to do.. and my studies is just pathetic.. haha.. exams are really soon once school reopen for 2nd term..

On a higher note, new year's eve and new yr day was relaxing!! Initally, we wanted to get a chalet over at east coast park but we were a little too late and it was taken up.. so we change our plan to get a hotel over in town.. and we went to The Gallery hotel.. haha..it's a designer's hotel so it's unique as compared to other hotel and the price is reasonable enough.. so when we have already checked in the hotel, we play games and watch abit of t.v before going out near clare quey to buy dinner and snacks for the nite.. we carry on walking and walking and walking till city hall area.. haha.. by the time we reached the place to eat, our appetite wasn't there anymore.. haha.. then we bought snacks n got back to the hotel.. we went to explore the hotel, finding a gd spot to see the fire works and ta-da we saw the roof top.. so when mid-nite was approaching, we count-down in our room and ran all to the roof top to see the fire works display!! haha.. this time round, we didnt need to squeeze at esplande just to see the fireworks.. and we were all alone at the roof top..haha..

then back to our room to carry on with all the planned games.. haha.. slept for a while and in the morning went to chill at the pool.. and after that we checked out and headed home!! haha.. very tired when I reached home, so slept for quite long.. and I need to prove to people tomorrow that I will be on time for lunch and meeting tomorrow!! hopefully I can do that!! haha.. if not, there goes my ears again!!

Lost time can never be found back again!!

2008-12-31T13:31:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year!! May the new year bring you more joy and laughters!!

Went to polyclinic to get medicine on monday for my dying-throat.. haha.. I took 2 hours to get it, felt damn bored in there..

Yesterday, went for trial food chain!! haha.. very enjoyable throughout the entire day just with a little tiredness getting in our way towards the end of the day.. well, it's human to feel tired!! haha.. the games are disgusting but i think it's not disgusting enough.. haha.. the food are very nice too!! ok.. haha.. after the actual food chain then I will talk more about it.. haha

ok.. so this year coming to an end already!! How time flies.. This year is one of the very enjoyable and memorable year with many ups and downs.. Got to know alot more friends and of cos getting to know them better.. School work is just getting more hectic by the days, weeks, months and years.. After years down the road, I feel this year is one of those that I will look back upon and just smile to myself.. haha!! Well, Let's look forward to the next year..

With every ending comes a new beginning!!

2008-12-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

Ho ho ho!! Merry Christmas Everyone!!

Been a long time since I last blogged!! haha.. Many happenings since my last post.. White Christmas event is over already.. Many thanks to everyone who have attended it, hope that you have gain something from it and most importantly have fun!! haha.. The kids can make you both happy and make your blood boil too!! haha.. The kids sound so sincere esp. when they are talking to me, calling me Kor Kor Nicholas instead of Penguin!! haha.. it makes them so adorable!! haha..

After White Christmas was trip to Cameron Highlands and K.L.. haha.. Cameron Highlands was very cooling and could imagine myself in Australia when I close my eyes.. haha.. Oh man, I felt like attending geography lesson when they were telling us about the agriculture there and so on.. I had everything else that made my throat worse, Durian, ice cream and alot of food.. haha.. and till now, I'm still sick.. haha..

Next was Christmas party over at Cindy's hse and over at aunty's hse.. Christmas is FUN!! haha.. Met up with my batch members on Christmas eve and day.. haha.. been a long time since I catch up with them.. okok, I'm the one who MIA!! haha.. and then when they got all so worked up and started suaning me.. haha then I kept quiet and listen to all their complaints.. Despite all of the complaints, their company is still one of the very best!! haha..

okok now, I'm very sick and need some rest!! haha.. Apologies for not attending alumni concert and class BBQ.. haha!! very sorry about it!! I will leave with this line.
Every ending comes a new beginning, dun worry for tomorrow because tomorrow will have tomorrow's problem..

2008-12-13T01:45:00.002+08:00

Today started off a little different from the past few days!! I had to wake up early to go school for meeting of FOC.. haha.. I was about 1 and the half hour late for the meeting and I thought they will be starting without me.. so I wasn't really worried.. but when I reached the clubhouse they said that they were waiting for me to start.. Felt damn guilty about it and also on my way to meeting, i bought soya bean to drink during the meeting.. that made it worst actually.. haha!! but the meeting was very productive today.. haha

After which, we went to AMK hub to have lunch and have white christmas meeting before going over to Chen Su Lan for their annual concert.. During the meeting, I was in the different frequency with the rest!! haha.. damn funny and partly is cos I felt sleepy.. haha!!

They call it Chen Su Lan annual thanksgiving concert, it was very heartwarming to watch the concert which we have prepared for them the skeleton of the story line for the concert and also after teaching them the dance.. They look so different today, whether is it appearance wise or their behaviour.. and when they go running up to you, it just feels good.. glad that they enjoyed themselves during the entire preparation of this concert with us.. their singing sounded like angels!! "When you see these children dancing and doing what they do, all your problems seem to have disappeared", I agree with this saying..

White Christmas event is coming!! haha!! lastly, sorry to those who I made them wait and being on a different frequency..

2008-12-04T23:28:00.002+08:00

Just when you realised.....

After every single day that has just passed, the pace of your life is getting faster bit by bit.. without the owner realising or feeling it.. The road ahead is straight and all you do is to drive forward.. just when you know that the car should stop, it cannot.. and when the car need to stop, you will be lost..

haha.. Holidays have started!! Yay!! It just simply means no studying for test but doing projectssssss..... and it still suck.. yet again, this holiday will be a busy one.. but this time round, with christmas and a new year awaiting!!! Can't wait for Christmas!!! Christmas brings warmth to the heart.. can you feel it ?!!? I miss those band christmas party every year during those days!! Those crazy times!! haha.. but still, christmas rocks.. haha.. anyway good luck to those taking common tests next week!! haha.. you will join me in a week's time.. haha!!

2008-12-03T17:49:00.001+08:00

I smell holidays!! Just one more day to go!! haha..

2008-11-24T22:48:00.003+08:00

Work never seem to end!! It just keep on adding.. Just when I thought this week will be a slower pace one, I was terribly wrong!! haha

Feel Blessed!!

2008-11-24T00:28:00.004+08:00

Thanks to those who celebrated my birthday and all the wishes from everyone.. Appreciated it alot.. Whether those surprises were anticipated by me or not, it touched me..

Like what I did for the previous year,

First, Family, Thanks for the celebration, the gifts and the dinner to come.. haha!

clique "colours", thanks for the celebration.. haha though it was really tough finishing the muffin in 19 secs and doing the forfeit!!

Classmates, Thanks for my broken boxers and being flag pole-ed.. the feeling was painful..

Chaos, Thanks for the gift and the cute cake.. haha I felt young at that point in time.. thus, my childish-ness.. haha!!

Brothers, Thanks for the cake, K and chill out session.. haha.. Not easy finishing a cake with just 4 of us..

MDES, oh man.. I was fooled to the max.. haha.. at first, there was suppose to be skating event, but was cancelled.. haha.. The entire committee knew about it and I didn't.. haha I'm wondering how stupid I was not to feel anything about the event being cancelled.. haha.. anyway Thanks for the card,cake and the specs and gun.. haha!!

Lastly, Thank you for the dinner and gift.. haha!!

All in all, this is a memorable birthday.. Thanks!!

2008-11-14T01:05:00.003+08:00

Crossing my fingers over chemical logistics test tomorrow.. I hope whatever I have study will come out and I know what to write.. wahaha.. anyway I think I will have a good weekend ahead with many things to do and going out.. haha.. It will be home alone for me till next thursday unless I get to see my brother at home over the weekend.. haha.. exciting!! ok shall rest now for test and bowling event.. cannot afford to be late for school again if not the lecturer will just lock the door and mark absent which is damn annoying..

2008-11-05T21:19:00.002+08:00

Wednesday is always the best day of the week cos it's always very relaxing.. though I didn't feel like going school for 2 hours but I know I needed to.. after which went for lunch and slept.. that was a gd break and time-out..

I'm feeling much better now, dun worry.. it was just a sudden burst of anger..

2008-11-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

Two post in a day, very unlike me!! anyway to that person who insisted that I'm depressed, I'm not!! haha.. neither am I emo-ing or any of that sort.. I'm not so fortunate to have that kind of time either.. just felt that I needed to vent some anger on my blog, instead, on anyone who cross my life.. That's all.. haha!!

anyway just ended log camp.. and I like the amazing race the most around city hall area.. becos, my group was very enthu, first group to leave school and first to reach school..and we finished all the 12 stations.. we practically ran the entire race and I drank so much water that I felt running/jogging was a torture to me but nevertheless I still did it slowly.. haha.. we took 2 cabs, one was paid by the money given and the other was because we heard that one group was on its way back to school.. but they didnt and we got the info when we just board the cab.. haha.. but seriously, my group was damn fun with the cheer and all.. as for the rest of the camp, it was alrite.. and once again, stayed at kismis the hotel-like apartment.. accomodation was still the best for the camp.. haha!!

2008-11-02T12:04:00.003+08:00

Tolerated enough, patient stretched to the maximum.. I guess that is the final straw.. Washing my hands off.. I'm getting very hot-tempered nowadays, probably, due to stress level and hectic schedule.. and it certainly not doing good to me.. Dun be shocked if I'm piss at you.. I just can't tolerate immature actions anymore..

2008-10-24T15:30:00.002+08:00

So many to do, so little time!! haha.. anyway wanna share about being a positive and negative person!!

A negative person would think that it is IMPOSSIBLE!!

A positive person would think that I-M-POSSIBLE!!

haha.. so choose, which one do you want? haha..

2008-10-21T00:30:00.003+08:00

I hope it does not fall in our hands..

lack of foresight;not having a strong foundation?, I think so.. really..

I will not let it pass..

haha!!

2008-10-19T01:00:00.002+08:00

With pasar malam downstair my house, how am I suppose not to not gain weight!??! haha!! shit man!!