I have tried to convince people that it is not as bad as what it seems but yet now, I'm trying to convince myself.. I doubt it before, but it happened again.. there are really no signs to show that it's improving.. I had a foresight of what will be happening and true enough it happened.. I always had this attitude, to give all that I can.. I know, for fact that this is not my all and I will not intend to give somemore because I will do what is needed of me and necessary and make sure no one and I mean no one will even give a negative comment about it.. and I know it can come true with my guidance.. and this will be my one and only pride.. other than that, I will give it all a miss.. I dun see any point in forcing things that are not within your control and the only end result will be leaving yourself in despair.. that, I believe is never an option for me.. The road is still long and I can see the engine of the car and where it is heading towards..

Sometimes, it is not that I do not want to care but I find it hard to swallow.. Maybe the email is a message to boost me up but for now, nothing is gonna work.. well, let's wait and see..