Within all these emotions and anger that is within me, there is still faith and believe calling me to have trust.. only with trust and faith then I will be able to find peace and even if it's the hardest obstacle that I need to overcome.. I'm sure I'm able to with faith and believe.. Because even the night has to give way to the day..

It seems to me that you will not be happy till u piss everyone off rite? talking behind everyone's back, thinking that it will not be exposed.. doing things that you think might make people be please with you or thank you, without knowing how to do this correctly.. and to make things worst, you either have a short term memory or u just simply dun understand my english.. you think that you are so-damn-smart and an influential person, that is the biggest mistake man.. U know your mistake yet u just won't stop making somemore.. seriously, stop pissing everyone off and it will do you good..

When u dislike what you are doing, you should stop because you will end up hating the damn shit..Now, i get the whole picture.. I felt being used..

I have tried to convince people that it is not as bad as what it seems but yet now, I'm trying to convince myself.. I doubt it before, but it happened again.. there are really no signs to show that it's improving.. I had a foresight of what will be happening and true enough it happened.. I always had this attitude, to give all that I can.. I know, for fact that this is not my all and I will not intend to give somemore because I will do what is needed of me and necessary and make sure no one and I mean no one will even give a negative comment about it.. and I know it can come true with my guidance.. and this will be my one and only pride.. other than that, I will give it all a miss.. I dun see any point in forcing things that are not within your control and the only end result will be leaving yourself in despair.. that, I believe is never an option for me.. The road is still long and I can see the engine of the car and where it is heading towards..

Sometimes, it is not that I do not want to care but I find it hard to swallow.. Maybe the email is a message to boost me up but for now, nothing is gonna work.. well, let's wait and see..

Mentally and Physically tired!!
My body is aching like nobody's business..
Now, my mindset is back to square one.. won't try to change it!!
Just let me enjoy my holiday like how everyone is enjoying it..

It's freedom for the 7 weeks!! and my aim this time is to enjoy life to the fullest!!
haha.. and now that I have time to enjoy, I will try my best to enjoy like as if there is no tomorrow.. haha!!

Been relaxing and chilling these few days and of cos meeting up with friends.. Hopefully it can make up for the times that I didnt get the chance to go out with them.. haha..

I really need to kick some bad habits of mine.. I think it's really killing me.. haha!! robbing me to be exact! ok.. Anyway I'm quite fed-up with receiving last minute information.. not to say that I'm busy but it always cork up my plans and I hate that to the max.. I don't like to rot and not doing anything useful because it will feel like as if I have wasted my life.. so I tend to plan things to do, whether is it to relax or wat but everything has a purpose.. It happened to me far too many times.. no pointing of fingers to anyone or anything, because we are humans afterall and we tend to forget things.. but it's just very annoying.. really.. I'm perfectly fine with pending status and receiving one day before the actually day.. we all need to have a sense of urgency, it will help very much..

haha ok.. I think I just needed to vent that out!!!