haha.. feeling happy yet so gloomy at the same time.. finish quizs and tests for the week.. marketing just suck to the max.. as for QLA, other than the careless mistake, i should be able to pass.. as for OPCS and purchasing, manage to pass it.. Somehow or rather, I feel happy passing puchasing.. cos the questions are really difficult.. haha during the test, i ask the lecturer when is the re test.. and believe it or not, before the test he did say that there will be a re test when sch term begin.. it goes to show the level of difficulty.. haha.. after test, went to boardgame shop near parklane.. haha.. super fun and exciting.. stayed there for 3 hrs.. with shouting n getting high.. haha.. been a long time since i did that.. during secondary sch, play boardgames quite often with shouting, screaming n all.. miss those times la.. haha..

Now for the gloomy part, I realise sth today which ppl realised it a long time ago.. and to think that i thought i could foresee things before ppl but well i'm wrong la.. damn sian after seeing it.. cos all also gd friends.. then turn out to be like that.. well wat should i do next ? i guess is to tolerate all this.. shit man.. wat if i end up like them?!

haha.. this problem has been irritating me for quite a long time already.. so just bear with it!! no point complaining cos it wont change anything.. just pray!

i didnt think for everyone.. how could i be that rash?! i thought i was thoughtful enuff to think for the greater gd and foresee things.. but y is it that i'm not doing it now.. it really sux..

well, I dun know if i'm doin it correctly.. wat u all said is true.. it did ring in my head.. i just want it to stop.. maybe its not the correct way to stop.. but oh well.. at least i think is correct.. haha

okok.. sry ppl if u dun understand.. but its for u all to slowly figure it out.. cos i wont say it out..
haha.. okok need to study for 2 tests next week.. nites!!

Head: Give up la.. Its not worth it!!

Heart: Just continue.. dun give up!!

haha this really suck! anyway the weather is damn freaking hot that i dun even feel like stepping out of my cold rm.. I went to the market and bought some stuff, coming home feeling so sticky!! damn sian la.. haha..

okok.. Is time for me to lose weight really.. haha.. Went to fullerton hotel to have buffet dinner yesterday to have an advance farewell celebration for Madeni leaving for Australia to study for 3 yrs.. and also for Hilmi's 21st birthday.. Wish them all the best.. the food was gd.. esp. the lobster and desert.. haha.. their service is only so so for a seven star hotel.. haha..

Next, went to somewhere which I really regret going!! dun even ask me bout it.. cos i wont say haha..FAST FORWARD!!

Had durian at geylang at bout 3 am.. haha.. after craving for so damn long, finally i got my durian!! is damn nice la.. melt in your mouth those kind.. haha.. then went to Simpang bedok for a drink n all.. then home to sleep!!

haha.. actually suppose to go for lunch with my parents and brother.. but since My bro and i came back so late, my parents knew that we wanted to sleep.. haha so it was cancelled.. but who knows?! my cousin called us saying tat my uncle wants to bring my bro and I for buffet lunch at Grand Mecure Roxy hotel.. haha.. actually i didnt feel like going, but but have to give face.. so my parents just ask us to go.. so yup went for lunch buffet!!!

The buffet is damn nice and it has free flow of chocolate fondue!!! that made me waking up early all worthwhile.. seriously is damn nice!! haha.. ate alot of food and had alot of chocolate for dessert!! haha..

the went home to have more sleep!! haha.. yay! thats my vesak day!! gaining more weight!! haha

Plans were cancelled today due to unexpected reason.. Hope that she will be fine and her family too.. Slept quite alot today haha.. stayed at home the entire day.. very relaxing.. haha.. had craving for durian!! haha.. but didnt get to eat it.. another day perhaps.. haha

Celebrated my grandmother's birthday dinner 2 days ago on thursday.. haha.. its kind of cool.. we had the manager waiting for us at the hotel lobby.. and then we had 2 tables in the VIP rm with tv and with a personal toilet.. initially, i rejected the red wine.. haha.. but the female captain insisted that i had some to liven up the mood.. haha.. so i took it.. anyway now i know y ppl like to drink red wine b4 they start on their food.. haha.. it really warms up your stomach.. haha..
the dishes were very nice.. I think it must have cost a bomb for my aunty.. haha.. oh well nvm.. its for my grandmother and we all enjoyed the food! haha..

Was on time for tutorial on friday.. if not that mr chan will nag nag and scold me.. haha.. he is annoying.. went an hour late last week.. and in the end, he asked so many questions.. haha it irritated me hell lots.. fast forward to the afternoon.. submitted my digital copy of nomination form.. talking bout that, I feel that its unfair to alot of ppl.. why do they call it nomination form when they dun even have a chance to nominate themselves.. the lecturer is kind of idiotic at the way they informed the ppl who were rejected.. damn sian cos of this whole thing.. oh well.. its unfair..

haha okok need to do some stuff now..

You do make a difference!

If each grain of sand were to say:
one grain does not make a mountain,
there would be no land.

If each drop of water were to say:
one drop does not make an ocean,
there would be no sea.

If each note of music were to say:
Each note does not make a symphony,
there would be no melody.

If each word were to say:
one word does not make a library,
there would be no book

If each brick were to say:
one brick does not make a wall,
there would be no house.

If each seed were to say:
one seed does not make a field,
there would be no harvest.

If each of us were to say:
one person does not make a difference,
there would never be love and peace on earth.

You do make a difference,

Begin today and make the difference!!!

ok currently I have a few important decisions to make! and it's quite irritating actually.. oh well.. Life is all about making decisions haha.. when u make a gd one, u succeed.. haha if u make a wrong one, u will be condemmed.. thats wat life is all about!! haha..

Feel so demoralise after seeing all those words and pictures!!! I guess thats the only thing that is pulling me down! and also time.. running against time! Life is short, better treasure ur surroundings and appreciate it. Because when u regret it, there will be nth that you can do about it..

haha ppl, something to take note: Not in emo mood!!!!!!!!! haha so dun assume becos it is wrong!!

Can u see my title?! Thats wat i truly feel!! haha.. becos of everyone around me.. haha okok.. to start off, I went to watch vegas yesterday with shar,becky,rainee,tong and chia.. haha.. The show is damn nice and funny!! wa.. can't stop laughing.. haha.. anyway I need to say sth to these ppl!! though i dun seem like as if I appreciate u all, but I really do!! esp.to tong haha.. i know i treat u lke fcuk.. haha.. but its all in the name of fun la.. I truly appreciate all of u.. haha.. ok?! so pls stop saying like I'm a bastard.. esp. Rainee!! haha.. We should go out more often!! haha..

haha ok that aside, I feel blessed to have so many gd and best friends around.. Whether from primary, sec sch and of cos poly! I feel that being in Ngee Ann is such a blessing.. though is damn far from my hse.. the ppl I met here, I cannot ask for more!! haha.. surrounded around me are ppl that i can always go to, to find comfort or anything.. haha okok.. I feel blessed!

Sick again!! didn't attend school for today.. feeling quite shitty now.. haha.. hope that I will recover soon..

For the past week, I've been goin out alot.. fun fun.. catch up with my fellow band batchmates and other friends too.. Sentosa on saturday, really no comments.. maybe becos I wasn't feeling gd.. so yea.. alot of things been happening for the past week.. I need a break!! haha

Clarinda, Thnks for tagging on my tagboard!! haha.. got to know this crazy girl thru camp PIAK 2.. haha.. she is very funny!! haha.. k done! ur name is on my post!! haha..

I dun exactly know wat to do now.. I just want everything back to normal.. but i doubt it can happened.. No matter wat, I've never regret wat I've done.. not even a moment.. the choice is yours.. choose it..