Here I am!! blogging at this hr.. just can't get to sleep .. many things happen in the past few days..


It's extremely shocking ...

At first , I thought of my friend whom I didn't contact him for about 2 months alr and he's one of my closer friend.. so I decided to drop him a msg asking him how was he n all.. he said he's fine .. not too bad but as usual, ups and downs in life .. and aft msging for a while .. he said something which I didn't expect him to say .. that was a very strong sentence .. a sentence which will stay on my head for a long time man haha.. anyway gonna meet him soon or talk over the phone ..

Secondly, My friend pass me a personal document for me to read.. When I first read it , I took a long time to read it and just couldn't believe my eyes.. and and I read it again.. now believing everything i read.. aft that, I kept quiet .. I was speechless.. and I really admire him alot.. because he can hide his feelings rather well ..

Thirdly, haha this is not very shocking but more of angry .. but I dun really bother.. nor do I wan to talk about it .. It no longer affected me already..time and time again.. All i wanna say is that.. U all are making me think harder bout our friendships.. I would wan to end it but because of other factors that is stopping me.. factors that are keeping me in the clique. Maybe I'm a bastard.. yes maybe wat u all think is rite ..I bastard alot of ppl.. I'm bias against u all .. wat I 've to say is .. I dun treat as gd my other friends .. esp. those who had been wit me in the same organisation.. because they 're more mature than u all.. we had been thru alot alot of obstacles together ..I'm not comfortable wit u all.. alrite ??!! understand ??!! I 've been holding back long enuff.. because i still enjoy wit u all.. but I can no longer stand it anymore.. cold war and all..

haha okok.. enuff bout that .. dun bother already .. let me be the evil person for I've tolerated enuff.. haha anyway pls dun ask me bout the ppl and problems.. because there's no way I'll tell u .. so dun bother trying..

ok just came back frm movie not long ago.. was watching men in white.. It is just another typical S'pore show.. quite funny and scary at times.. haha.. was tonning last nite and now.. had fun .. enjoying my holiday and gonna enjoy even more soon..

It's never easy to enjoy every moment of our lives.. but when U're too sad or pessimistic about life for a few yrs.. U 'll eventually realise that being pessimistic doesn't help u to make ur live better.. That was what I realised and see who I'm rite now.. so must realise it ok??

Was just thinking about my past .. when I was in lower secondary.. then I realise wat I was b4.. I know I've change and all I can say that I've been thru enuff in my life that allow me not to be sad even if the sky were to drop.. that is how strong I'm rite now.. wahhaha.. Future will change!! maybe in future .. I might not be like this.. We'll see..

okok.. this post is very very long.. Just alot of thoughts nowadays since I'm so free.. This is my first time having holiday without c.c.a practices or homework.. woohoo.. very nice feeling..