let me start wit this.. I jogged around the campus without stopping today..

yea.. I'm happy with my performance.. It means that my stamina and will power has gone up.. That is something I'm very happy about.. I feel that my determination level has also gone up.. because when I want sth, I'll make sure I get it or do it.. unlike in the past, when I dun care about whether I get it or wat.. No matter wat.. Life has been great with higher level of will power and determination ..

For the first time.. I really pay attention in my java HTML class.. haha.. manage to understand some of the stuff taught..

wahaha.. Yestersday .. I've decided not to go for school because I only have 2 hrs of sport n wellness and I was feeling tired.. However, I felt guilty the whole night ok.. after that phone call.. haha but no more already..

I WANT TO FULFIL ALL MY COMMITMENTS WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!

TIRED!!!! y must all my wednesdays be filled with so many events?!! started my class at 8 in the morning and ended at 6 in the evening.. I had an extra hour of lesson.. and it's because I failed this particular module and had to stay back for extra class.. Y must it be today ?!! ok then after classes.. had squash.. very fun joking n playing around.. didn't sweat as much as usual because I was going marina square to meet my friends to sit down n chill.. AND most importantly it was Louis's birthday.. so sit down and chit-chat and joke ard.. luckily .. I didn't really stink.. so it was alrite.. after which took a cab home which was kindly sponsored by Louis .. wahaha.. so that was my busy day.. anyway results are all out.. although it's bad but I'm not disappointed because I knew I didn't work very hard for it.. and results are as expected lousy.. passed 4/5 modules.. 2 of which are just botherline passes.. haha.. yea.. I just realise how busy I will be in the next 2 months.. yea.. so I'll not be going out so much.. my life will just revolve around those commitments , school and home.. Meeting up with my batch members after a long time was truly nice .. haha.. ok I gonna bathe now..

Today wasn't my day!! Woke up and didn't feel like going to school.. but I still force myself to go.. when I reach school.. that's when everything started.. My friend reminded me that I had to wear shoes because we're having lab session today.. Oh man!! I wore slippers to sch!! .. at first, I thought of giving the lab session a miss.. but marks were included for our presence and all.. so made a phone call and got a pair of shoes.. haha Alphonsus is the best!! he lent me his pair of shoes n wore my small slippers ard sch .. haha.. Finally, I got my phone back though it wasn't cheap.. but the main point was.. I GOT MY PHONE BACK!! haha.. so happy now.. I love my phone haha.. super sian today.. boring+ tired= sian.. I could sleep anywhere and everywhere today .. which is so not my pattern.. okok.. hope tmr will be a better day for me..

It's great that you have such an easygoing attitude
about things today, but instead of sitting back and
just going along with whatever happens, why not
try to figure out why things are happening? Your
brain could use a little puzzle to solve, and you
will enjoy the twists and turns that it places in
your path. Obstacles will be fun, delays will be
intriguing, and new faces will be downright
riveting. Get to know a few of them and
unleash your inner sleuth!

This is my friendster horoscopes for today.. and I really agree with whatever it said .. This is wat I've been doin for the past few weeks.. I guess I should start thinking a little more haha..
Spent my weekend watch MVP qing ren.. very touching show.. and nice too.. haha.. watching last 2 espiodes now.. so see ya..

Back from my chalets.. Its was super duper fun!! though I've gain all the weight I've lost earlier on in the week.. School's starting soon.. gonna be busy again.. Have many aims during the next 2 months.. hope that I can reach it.. During the entire chalet, I slept no more than 8 hours .. I thought camp was bad but chalet is even worse.. so I slept alot on fri nite.. really damn tired.. but it was worth while.. Everyday in your life , U will learn something.. Do u agree with this statement?? I really agree.. because during the chalet.. I've learn many things about myself and about the things ard me during the chalet.. For example.. I could hide my feelings so well during the chalet haha.. which I think it was very gd.. anyway I've enjoyed this 2 weeks of fun and of cos the awesome chalets .. haha okok shall carry on watching my MVP qing ren..

I feel like drinking and be high!! haha.. Two of the best occasions that I was high while drinking were in Hawaii and class party last year.. Those were the best moments.. I felt soooo gd... 1 week of holiday has pass.. left with 1 more week.. then back to studying and hopefully I 'll do better than the last term .. but I guess it's not easy.. because I 'm not a really discipline person.. but I'll try my best.. so 2 more days to chaletss.. quite excited about it .. Hope that It'll be fun and memorable.. Life's short.. must enjoy .. wahaha.. went shopping on sat.. quite happy with what I bought.. considering the no. of months I haven't been goin shopping.. unlike my other friends.. shopping is like their daily routine.. haha okok i gonna bathe now..

Haven't been blogging for a few days..haha.. and it feels like ages.. Just went back to St. Pat's yesterday to collect my o level cert and year book.. and also went to the band rm.. I guess the feeling is the same back in sch and the warm and cosy band rm.. Just that I'm no more schooling there.. haha.. have been staying out alot.. hang out and busy catching up with friends.. been sleeping till very late.. yea.. this is what I call life.. haha sleeping and relaxing haha... somehow or rather I feel that my attitude towards certain things changed.. I'm having the" bo chap" attitude towards alot of stuff.. as a result, many might think that I'm a selfish person and all.. or even worse I'm a changed person.. sometimes.. I really wanna care but just that sth in my head or heart tells me not to.. yea.. but on the bright side.. having the " bo chap" attitude ain't that bad haha.. at least u dun have to care bout certain useless stuff.. haha.. this holiday is an eye- opener.. haha thats all I've to say..

Gonna make this post a short and sweet one because I'm tired and my body is in real pain..
Went sentosa today .. It was fun but but.. my body is in pain after sun tanning and playing in the sun .. at first when we reached, it was raining but in the afternoon , it stopped so we went into the sea and played games.. haha we celebrated Wee Nee's and Priscilla"s birthday there wit cake and 2 packets of flour.. I really think that the guys there including myself are evil... damn evil.. started throwing all the girls into the water and forcing them to betray their own girl-friends.. haha.. splashing water at them .. throwing flour on them .. okok it was fun bullying the girls..seeing them so defence-less was the best of all.. wahhaha.. and they think I was mad today.. haha I'm not .. just being high and enjoying myself.. okok i guess that's all for my day .. had alot alot of fun .. haha

I 've made up my mind about certain issues.. Hope it'll help me in my life.. Today made me decide..

Here I am!! blogging at this hr.. just can't get to sleep .. many things happen in the past few days..


It's extremely shocking ...

At first , I thought of my friend whom I didn't contact him for about 2 months alr and he's one of my closer friend.. so I decided to drop him a msg asking him how was he n all.. he said he's fine .. not too bad but as usual, ups and downs in life .. and aft msging for a while .. he said something which I didn't expect him to say .. that was a very strong sentence .. a sentence which will stay on my head for a long time man haha.. anyway gonna meet him soon or talk over the phone ..

Secondly, My friend pass me a personal document for me to read.. When I first read it , I took a long time to read it and just couldn't believe my eyes.. and and I read it again.. now believing everything i read.. aft that, I kept quiet .. I was speechless.. and I really admire him alot.. because he can hide his feelings rather well ..

Thirdly, haha this is not very shocking but more of angry .. but I dun really bother.. nor do I wan to talk about it .. It no longer affected me already..time and time again.. All i wanna say is that.. U all are making me think harder bout our friendships.. I would wan to end it but because of other factors that is stopping me.. factors that are keeping me in the clique. Maybe I'm a bastard.. yes maybe wat u all think is rite ..I bastard alot of ppl.. I'm bias against u all .. wat I 've to say is .. I dun treat as gd my other friends .. esp. those who had been wit me in the same organisation.. because they 're more mature than u all.. we had been thru alot alot of obstacles together ..I'm not comfortable wit u all.. alrite ??!! understand ??!! I 've been holding back long enuff.. because i still enjoy wit u all.. but I can no longer stand it anymore.. cold war and all..

haha okok.. enuff bout that .. dun bother already .. let me be the evil person for I've tolerated enuff.. haha anyway pls dun ask me bout the ppl and problems.. because there's no way I'll tell u .. so dun bother trying..

ok just came back frm movie not long ago.. was watching men in white.. It is just another typical S'pore show.. quite funny and scary at times.. haha.. was tonning last nite and now.. had fun .. enjoying my holiday and gonna enjoy even more soon..

It's never easy to enjoy every moment of our lives.. but when U're too sad or pessimistic about life for a few yrs.. U 'll eventually realise that being pessimistic doesn't help u to make ur live better.. That was what I realised and see who I'm rite now.. so must realise it ok??

Was just thinking about my past .. when I was in lower secondary.. then I realise wat I was b4.. I know I've change and all I can say that I've been thru enuff in my life that allow me not to be sad even if the sky were to drop.. that is how strong I'm rite now.. wahhaha.. Future will change!! maybe in future .. I might not be like this.. We'll see..

okok.. this post is very very long.. Just alot of thoughts nowadays since I'm so free.. This is my first time having holiday without c.c.a practices or homework.. woohoo.. very nice feeling..

Haha .. today had port visits. went to PSA and Jurong port and pass by pasir panjang port.. I got to know more bout those ports , how they work and all la.. wahaha.. the most fun part of the trip was taking the cable car up to Mt. Faber.. where we can see PSA port.. the view was nice.. haha .. ppl were all busy taking pictures up there.. the cafe there is also very nice.. for those couples to romantic up there.. haha .. went back to the bus n took pictures.. in fact.. we took alot of click se7en pictures.. ok and I'm the no.3 in the group being the 3rd oldest there.. haha.. overall, I had fun .. okok gonna enjoy the rest of my holiday...

Exams are over!!

Not feeling too good!!

Haven't been having enough sleep!! Hopefully I can have a gd sleep on Fri night

Events coming up during the holiday!!

Hope that I can have fun, fun and more fun!!

Realise many new things!!

Guess my brain is not resting enough!!

It's indeed not easy fighting against yourself................

Common test period!! but I'm glad it's gonna end tomorrow.. yesterday had the computer module test.. haha I know I might not even pass it.. cause I wrote so much crap.. as in really crap.. when I was thinking about my answers, I was laughing to myself.. my ans. are all funny and stupid.. haha.. for business statistics.. I made many stupid mistakes.. haha but it's alrite.. It's all over!! still have one more tomorrow.. hope it will be alrite.. anyway I feel that I shouldn't log on to MSN so much haha.. cause its taking too much of my time.. when I log on, it's so difficult to go off.. haha.. still prefer ppl to call or msg me.. dun think I will be going on to MSN so much now wahaha.. so pls msg or call me if anything.. ate alot of tidbits while in sch library today.. so fun!! okok wanna take a short nap now.. see ya ..


Giving up is never an option for me .. wahhahaha..

I'm having mixed emotions.. Sad.. Happy.. Fear.. Tired.. Just can't wait for common tests to be over.. but wat's the point.. I will still be going out almost everyday.. not much of a difference.. So many friends to go out with.. ok I'm not emo-ing but just thinking alot .. and thanks Wee Nee for sending me that song " ru guo ni hai ai wo" .. I'm in love with that song now wahah.. I'm always looking forward to going to sch and class.. because of my friends there.. haha.. "clique se7en" .. "chaos".. "best friends".. haha never fail to laugh with these people.. and to all my other friends.. I will never ever forget about u all .. It's just that I dun have alot of time to go out with u all.. I do miss u all .. wahaha .. will go out with u all during my holidays.. and that's no way I'm breaking that promise.. Till then, take care!!


NOT emo-ing.. just thinking a little more..wahahhahahaha